Do I deserve this? Yes, few may say. My current state is a resultant of all my decisions, my efforts and my thoughts I have put in to my life so far. All this while probably I was lucky to not to get screwed up big time. I had my share of rough time for a while but luckily I sailed through without much damage. I gambled on chance and it backfired. Had the odds turned my side, I would have been a success story.